In his words....

So after 10 years my son Trevor (now 21) has decided 

to take up the goalie gear again.

Unfortunately he seems to be having a problem finding a team

Small town living doesn't provide a lot of opportunities

But for now he can at least play drop-in.

He's a little worried because he hasn't done it since 

he was PeeWee age,

when, admittedly, he was awesome.

He quit because of his attitude at the time

Long story that is...

but now, when he sees his old coach 

watching a local Junior A team 

His coach says, "you could have been there too"

And Trevor says "I know, I wish I hadn't have quit".

Carey Price, goalie for Montreal, is his hero

because he's from a small town an hour north of here

and made it to big-time NHL.

"That could have been me" he says.

If nothing else, he learned a lesson about quitting with all that.

Anyways, as I said, he's a little nervous

So I suggested that he go to what is called "stick'n'puck"

Kind of a free for all where there are pucks for everyone 

and you just practice on your own.

He gave me a horrified look and said, in all earnestness

"But then people will shoot on me!"

Um, news flash Trevor, that's what happens when you're a goalie.

Or had you forgotten that part?

A list.......things to remember,

There are things in life that are seemingly a "no duh"

to borrow a phrase from my teenagerhood.

But I'm going to remind myself of them.

Things I would tell my children

but sometimes have a hard time living up to myself.

Happy is as happy does.

If you can't say anything nice, don't say nuthin' at all.

If you don't get at it, when you get to it, you won't get to it

to get at it again.

Hating someone is letting them live rent-free in your head. 

Don't do something permanently stupid just because

you're temporarily upset.

(one month or so later)
I started the above and never posted it.
Today I wanted to let out how I am feeling
 but didn't want to do it on Facebook
because I don't want my kids to see and worry about me,
but it sort of goes like this:

Just when you think you have it figured out,
you are feeling better about yourself and the things you do
it comes at you from a different angle and slaps you upside the head,
reminding you that you can fight it, and make a damned good effort
but it will always be there because it's a part of who you are.