In the midst of the darkness a day of light has come through
September 28 1992 and September 28 1994 were the two most special days
of my life,
the days that my sons were born
I was worried that I would be unable to enjoy the day
But a talk with my psychiatrist on Friday combined with the gladness of the day
Enabled me to put aside the darkness
if only for a day
After spending time with Trevor and his girlfriend
(Jeremy lives too far away at the moment, sadly)
I was able to go out for a walk with my dog and my camera
and enjoy myself and the surrounds for a change
The nicest walk I've been on for a while
I didn't have to notice the possibilities of bad
and was able to appreciate and see the good
It was a much appreciated reprieve from the last few weeks
It may not last forever but it lasted for the day
and has spilled over into today
The only thing to mar it
was that Monty bonked his anvil-like head against my swinging camera
and now I get a lovely little message saying "lens error, camera will turn off automatically"
That can't be good but I'm sure it can be fixed
I also tore a hole in my shirt climbing through a barbed wire fence
but that too can be mended
And if those can be mended
Maybe my broken psyche can be too
If not mended, maybe patched for a while.
The bad thing hasn't happened yet
It will but I am not so worked up about it right now.
Tomorrow my husband is back on night shift
and that's when the demons come
but for now, I will believe that I can ward them off again
and enjoy the good things in life.